Since YOU passed away, each and every day it feels like being lost forever in the dark winter forest ...cold, dark, empty, lonely, forever..
Without,
YOU, home feels like a house
YOU, my days are empty
YOU, my hours are lonely
YOU, my laughter is sour
YOU, everything I get doesn't make me happy
YOU, the victory doesn't taste sweet
YOU, Happiness is not complete
YOU, Sadness feels like forever.......
If,
I fail, I have no one to comfort me
I succeed, I have no one to celebrate with
Now,
Each day I pray for YOU
Each day I struggle without YOU, try my best for our children, I hope and pray that one day they will become everything YOU wished
Each day I wish I was a better person for YOU, regrets I have so many, It's something I must live with everyday
Each day I remember all the beautiful memories we had
Each day I remember YOUR beautiful and kind soul
Each day, I try to change who I use to be..to be a better person, better parent
Each day, I try to fight the demons inside me....
Sometimes,
At night, the pain squeezes my heart so hard
The places we have been to becomes sad
The things we use to do are hard to repeat
I feel so lost I don't know what I'm doing....
Love,
I will try my best to make you proud..
I will raise our children and tell them stories of their mother..
I will visit your grave often..
I will keep you inside me forever
Love,
If I have to let you go, I pray that God will put you in a beautiful garden of Eden..and the chance to see you again..IN ETERNITY..
